Monday, July 5, 2010

I Like You

You guys are awesome. First of all there are so many new readers and that just blows my mind. I'm spending tonight & tomorrow getting back to everyone who commented on posts because it means the world to me that you do.

My whole life, I have been taught to never say when I'm sad, afraid, nervous... are nervous and afraid the same thing? Through my Dad's heart transplant, my cousins deaths, when I donated my kidney to my Dad - I was told, "never let anyone see you cry," "don't let people be burdened with your emotion, it will make them feel bad."

So this blog is like major rebellion for a good girl like me. And the fact that people read it and say they're inspired by it-- Amaze-mas. Yeah, new word I made up. Like when something is as amazing as Christmas is to a five year old. Amaze-mas.

I have to make jokes when I am talking about emotional things.

I'm working on it.

Anyway, yes, this is a short post so I can get back to all of you. In the meantime, I wanted to show some mad love for people who took the time to comment, and who either made me have to reach for a box of Kleenex, or made me laugh so hard Folgers coffee came out of my nose.

I heart you all. Okay, love. I do, I love you guys.

Aubrey said... I love you. Can I say I love you or is that a little creepy? Like, weird internet stalker creepy or weird random person in the street that comes up and hugs you creepy? Oh well. I guess I'm creepy then.

Lia said... That is the most beautiful post I've ever read. I found you on Twitter and I just get everything you are saying. I'm so glad I found this blog. I feel like you are speaking to me.

Lynda with a Y said... Seriously? I think I have a girl crush on you. Anyone who has been sucked in by the beast that is depression--well let me just say--your blog is a tiny little miracle. Thanks.

simone said... oooo brave brave brave! and bravo to you. I am standing at the foot of a bridge wondering if I should walk around and cross it, thanks for this timely post on being happy. xxoo

hope n laughter said... 1. Keep writing, I've missed your post and I'm glad that your still kickin' and screamin'. 2. You write what I'm thinking, but in a much more intresting way. 3. Feel that you and the Eat, Pray, Love are the same, except with you I get to experince your journey with you.

Kristen said... You.Are.Awesome.

Jennifer H said... Brillant. Beautiful. I would love to post this link on my blog! I have just hit a wall I have never hit before...and you sum it up all very well. And have given me hope. I can feel something inside, the childlike wonder of life of me, stir in excitement, instead of just seeing the the overbearing responsibilities I feel. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Krista said... I'm in awe right now. It's taken me 24 hrs to respond and it's still not going to make sense. I can't believe i'm not alone. There are others at the bottom of this miserable, painful, dark, pit. And there is hope to see light again. Thank you God for allowing me to find your blog last while driving home during a 17 hr trip. Somewhere near Buffalo,I found a friend in the darkness.

Okay... where is that Kleenex box???? You guys are the best. You have no idea... your comments are changing my life because they inspire me to keep me moving forward. So thank you. Really, thank you. xoxoxoxo

PS... If you're a New New reader there are a few posts will be helpful if you want to know the inspiration for writing this blog go back and read You Can Get To The Other Side - June 20, 2010; Some Stuff About Me - June 27, 2010 and Adventure Bowl: Let's Kick Ass & Takes Names Later - June 23, 2010.

Also, feel free to follow me as I am a naughty naughty infrequent bad girl poster. xoxoxo And if you join my Facebook page we can have ACTUAL CONVERSATIONS. Oh, those are the best!
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18 comments:

tw!nkletw!nkle said...

I love that last comment. it's poetic <3

Twink

AubreyMo said...

E-Love! It's spreading! Thanks for listing me. You really are inspiring. Growing up we were told/taught not to show emotion too (I think it stems from my dad being afraid of any tears - he had a knee-jerk reaction to get mad if anyone was crying). It can be hard to show emotions like that, especially online, but it's also strangely liberating.

Like "yea, look at me, admitting online that I'm human".

adventure grrl said...

You two are my most favorite-est commenters. So supportive of what I'm trying to do. And I always love hearing how you relate, makes me feel like I'm not so alone in this world of crazy. xoxoxo

adventure grrl said...

I wish you two could see how I light up when I read your comments. You are awesome. Aubrey Mo, cool to learn we have that in common too. "Like 'yea, look at me, admitting online that I'm human'." Beautiful.

Holly736 said...

This is really sweet, I never knew if you even read comments. It's nice to know that you think we are helping you too. Now, I can't wait to get a comment from you on blog!

Quinn said...

I am so glad you are doing this blog. I absolutely love it and eagerly await your posts. I have told everyone about your blog because I just think it is so fun, powerful and upbeat. The only thing I would change is that you should post MORE... several times a day would be ideal:) Keep them coming!

thehorizontalyoyo said...

I found you through Twitter, I think. Meaning, one of the ladies I follow is a reader of yours. Anywho...I immediately "liked" you on FB.

What spoke to me most in your post about your depression is when you stated that even when you were the "perfect size/weight", you still thought you were fat. I thought I was the only one who thought that?!?!?! In high school, I was 119 lbs (I'm 5'4") and remember standing in front of the mirror in my family's hallway thinking to myself, "If I just get rid of the paunch, I'll wear a bikini."

I didn't have a paunch! And truthfully, I'm not the kind of chick to wear a bikini!

Now, 15 years later (and 50 lbs heavier), I realize what a fool I was. But it's also made me realize that loving yourself isn't about a size. Loving yourself, truly loving yourself, is not dependent on your weight, but on your personal happiness.

Regardless of what size I am - I deserve to be happy. We all do!

JessaLiz said...

YOU. ARE. INSPIRING.

GoGo said...

Your blog rocks my world. Thank you. I'm so glad it's back up, I really missed you when you were gone.

starcakeastrology.blogspot.com said...

your blog is an inspiration

misssarahlou said...

Love the love for your readers!

adventure grrl said...

Thanks for all the comment love, you guys! I will get back to everyone, I promise, I always love reading what you guys are up to. (*dabs eyes with Kleenex*)
Love to you all.

Melly said...

It's very sad - my Google Reader refuses to update me on your blog posts! I'll try and remember to keep checking up - manually :) Sorry I've been so absent.

Definitely KEEP GOING. You've got a lot of momentum going, and plenty of supporters - and we all have to remember to keep it going. Keep it honest, keep it raw, and keep it realistic. Go GO GO!

Amanda said...

I'm glad you're back! It's good to know that other people are having to work hard at being happy - reminds me to keep on going.

GravyTrain said...

OMG yay!!!!!! I cannot tell you how much your blog inspired me (to this day) and have adopted the adventure bowl and your strong determination to be fit and strong emotionally and physically!

Will be catching up on all your adventures! Can't wait.

Jamie said...

Amaze-mas. Love it. I love reading the comments and seeing lives being touched and inspired!!!!
I'm so glad to have found your blog. I don't even remember how I found it awhile back but so glad that I did. You are an inspiration!!!! Happy day to you!!! xoxo

Cara said...

Hello! I'm a newer reader/follower and I just wanted to say I really enjoy your blog, it's very honest. Keep it up and keep smiling :D

Quix said...

I dig you and your blog, and was sad you took a break, but ya know, life and all (and I'm TOTALLY THERE RIGHT NOW *grrr work getting in the way of my bloggy time, but yay promotion and junk**). I always shied away from being emotional too. My uber sensitive hubby thinks I'm weird but I yam what I yam. I mean, I was the only one in the wedding party not tearing up at my wedding, right? I'm beaming, they're all sniffling. =)

I think it was my mom cried at EVERYTHING and I thought it was dumb so I decided to cry at nothing. Or maybe I'm just defective. Who knows.